The trip back to Sweden.

So I booked a train to London (much more expensive than London to Manchester) and a plane ticket. I had to print the plane ticket and my hotel could not help me do it. The Internet café they recommended weren’t open so just before my train would leave I had to find another place to print it. Luckily I found a place.

Then boarding the train I discovered that I had accidently booked a first class ticket. In hindsight it is actually something I don’t regret at all. I was served like a king and had food, fruit, tea and other cold drinks served. Once in London things went super smooth and while I did have some weight issues with my luggage that worked out as well.

On the train from Stockholm Central to my home station the troubles started again. It was in the middle of the night, might have been the last train of the night, and it suddenly stopped between two stations. It was announced that there was a total stop on the station ahead and we had to return to the previous station and wait for the special busses. I have been in this situation before and I know it takes time, a lot of time, for these busses to arrive so I and 4 others shared a taxi and sometime before 01:00 AM I was finally home. SL, the train company, will pay for the taxi so its ok after all.

I have been home over a week now and I am super bored. So its soon time to return I think. After all I don’t want to fail with this experiment. Its enough that I didn’t make it at my first try. My English phone cant be charged from Sweden so the job searching has come to a halt (I cant be reached and people don’t seem to like to call to a Swedish phone – understandably so). I guess I’ll send the hotel an e-mail and ask when they have about a week free for me to stay and I will go back then.

And it became worse...

Yes, it has been a good while since I wrote but I just saw a movie and felt inspired to blog again. After my last post things did indeed become worse. I decided to go to Manchester to stay with two internet friends. I thought it would be god for me. It would mean some place to stay for free while I charged my batteries to go out on the field again.

I had met these two people once before and it was a disaster then. No personal chemistry at all and after that I was sure I would never see them again. I guess you don’t think rational in desperate times. As soon as I was picked up I knew it would be no different this time around. The trip from Machester Picadilly felt like it took forever but I though it would be alright once we arrived. How wrong was I? Well very wrong.

Once there the flat was horrendous. It had no floors just the foundation. The only furniture one could sit on was one bed and one sofa. There were no internet connection whatsoever in the flat (necessary for me because of my job searching). On top of this they had two cats. I knew it beforehand and had ok’ed it. I am allergic but cats are usually fine or rather usually were fine as long as I didn’t touch them. Well, my reaction didn’t wait. Runny nose, some trouble to breathe. I called my friend and said “I need to get out of here” and I got some advice on how to make it happen (we’ll get to that).

Then they bring out my bed. The most uncomfortable thing I ever slept in. I did manage to go to sleep however and when I woke up and heard one of them was also up I faked a phone call. Then announced that someone from London had called and wanted me for an interview and that I had to leave the same day. I just couldn’t tell them the truth but my guess is that they also felt relieved when I left. It took a while but I got a ride to the train station and was dropped off there.

Trust me I have learned a lesson. I didn’t really have to go that day and I did take in to a hotel that night which felt great. Then and there I decided I would go back to Sweden for a while to save me some expenses for a few weeks and return to London when I was ready for another try.

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I just recieved an e-mail that said the temporary work I was looking to get from March to the end of April would start interviewing in late March. Unless something good comes along for the month of March I cant sit around and wait for that. There 12 hours have been horrible. Nothing has been right :( I seriously doubt why I came. I guess the good thing is that it has helped me appreciate what I have at home. We'll see where I will go from here...

Fall to pieces...

I just got a phone call from my personal contact who was providing me with the room I was going to rent for a couple of months. Apparently the woman who's room it was decided to let one of her mates stay there instead (actually despite saying that I was #1 if I wanted it). I do understand her but this made all my plans go down the shitter.

I had such a good plan of staying for a few months and doing some temporary work (which I for some reason almost counted on that I would get). Then I would go visit my friend in the US in May. Now I have no place to stay after wednesday, no work and I dont feel like going home. All energy has been drained.

Fuck!!!

Making pizzas, serving coffee or restoring dinosaurs?

Here I am in London looking for a job. Unfortunately all the ones I really want seem to be doing bad business at the moment. I found Denmark Street with all the music instrument shops and everyone said the same thing. Business is down and we already have to many people hired. Not the answer I want.

I have been applying for some other jobs as well but it seems to be quite hard. I might have something going at a museum though. Temporary but thats all I need. I do have a room in a house share I will have a look at tomorrow. Gotta have somewhere to stay the two weeks until I can move in there though.

All in all I have learned to appreciate what I used to have back in Sweden a lot more - and its only been a week! Crazy really. I was pretty down the first part of the week and in reality havent done all I can to get a job but I hope things will be alright anyway.

As the computer nerd that I am (without actually having good knowledge of how hard ware or soft ware works) the hardest part is not having access to my own computer and my own internet connection. Ah well... at least there is free wireless internet where Im staying now.

So no big news and no philosophical ramblings today just small updates. I think this will be the case for quite some time now. I have no time or relaxation enough to try to write good deep articles. Even though I do have plans to write my final essay for the philosophy course I tooka few years back. We'll see what happens with that.

Over and out!

The rebirth!

A restart! A new version! Mr. Insane is back!

I already dislike the lead-in but I will leave it for now. I decided to start blogging again on a whim. A friend of mine wanted me to do a travel blog (you will soon know why) and I felt like I really wasnt up to it. Just a straight traveling blog would be boring to me but it still gave me this idea to upgrade what I was already doing.

I was doing Ephesos 2.0 from 20 October 2007 until 14 June 2009. And to be honest towards the end I wasnt very active at all and I decided to not write anything after my post on the death of Mitsuharu Misawa.

Last time around I wanted the blog to focus mostly on a philosophical perspective. It did however include personal things as well, more than originally intended. This time around I am looking to broaden the spectrum to include more things. Since I am a thinker there will still be alot of philosophy going on Im sure but I will try to do more diverse things as well. And when I write about personal things I will try to also include the happy things in my life. On the other blog I tended to only write about the bad stuff. That doesnt mean I only felt those feelings but it was those feeling I felt a need to write about.

This is already to long so I will stop with a note that I dont have an automatic spell checker at the moment so please bear that in mind. I hope I spell good enough for this to be readable.